Perhaps we're all born great. When I was a small child, I carried a magic wand made of plastic, and I'd make predictions that came true. I matched my father in contests of speed and I once knocked him backwards with an imaginary energy ball. I could see that each person was free to choose their own path, and find their own happiness, and I cared for all life.
When I was 10 years old, I studied the basics of energy healing. I would offer sessions to my friends and family, and work on myself when I was stressed. I'd meditate on the past, present, and future, and visualize the lines of fate that connected us to each other and to the outcomes of all our possible choices.
And then one day, I learned to doubt. I learned that I might not be magical- that magic may not be real...and I was afraid to find out for sure. I learned that being judged and shunned hurts, and that both could happen if I loved to hard or shared my joy too brightly. I learned that sometimes, when I acted from strength or passion, people could be hurt, and forces more frightening than me could push back.
So, I backed down. I slowed down. I moved more thoughtfully, cautiously, quietly. I still contemplated destiny, and love, and light. I still made guesses about life. But I'd always ask before I'd act: Will this hurt anyone? Anger anyone? Will I say something so wrong I'll be ashamed? Am I sure that I'm right?
And because of that, I learned, and I grew disciplined. I trained myself in rigorous rational thought, to avoid being foolish. I studied and practiced many forms of communication and empathy, so I could understand others and avoid causing them harm. I spent years studying the human brain, healing arts, and certain unproven methods of developing your mind and your spirit- so I could help myself and others to be stronger, happier, and wiser.
The story could stop here, but too many stories do. One day I realized that despite developing the skills of competence, I had still been holding back my spirit- compromising my natural wisdom, settling for less than my most important values.
Working with a skilled trainer, I began to let go of the inhibitions that so long instilled me with an attitude of hyper-cautiousness, and I gave myself permission to go against the grain- just a little- if that's what it takes to make a difference in the world. Now, day by day, I work not only to develop the skills I've been cultivating over the past two decades, but also to return to the natural wisdom and courage I had as a child.
As I return to being playful and intuitive, and as I question more and more of the restrictions I've put on myself over the years, I find myself wanting more and more, to offer the world the same gift my trainer offered me. So many people deal with the same problems over and over, getting stuck in all sorts of different ruts- holding themselves back out of fear or a sense of impossibility. As I do the hard work for my own growth, I also want to support others as they do the hard work for themselves.
Doing things 'just because' won't change the world. We can do more, and be more than that.